She dream of Paradise ❤
Round and round, it doesn’t allow you to be found;
For you lost immensely in the deep blue ocean
Whilst you always wished it to be the heaven;
As fancy as a skyline, rising you up like a lifeline;
Metaphors apart, considerations depart.
Bullied by the bitter truth, your path is no longer smooth;
Befuddled by where you stand, the whim no longer withstands.
Bravery neglects holding on, compulsive forces moving on;
To wherever it owns you, you have been espoused for this path;
The chosen one for your cup of chaos and certainty.
And with all of these imposed notions
You are still breathing fine, with your head under the ocean.
“You have not changed a bit!”, exclaimed an old friend of her.
Little did she know that..
She is not the same girl who used to be naive and worry over the simplest emotional discomfort. She is not the same girl who used to be people pleasing and understood them more on the positive side than she was supposed to. She is not the same girl who was happy to give infinite chances for the sun to rise in the west. She is not the same girl who cursed life for its thorns it laid on her path. She is not the same girl who suffered suffocating in the ocean of expectations, that broke her every single time. She is not the same girl who had no doubt in trusting people. She is not the same girl who once hoped life to be a box of chocolates that gets to treat you with jubilation. She is not the same girl who selflessly tried hard not to change.
Life happened and she did nothing but change.
“One last time”, the heart fooled the brain every single time.
I am kind of obsessed with my possessions, my people, my belongings to an extent that I do not want others to know and celebrate my favorites. But then when you are so proud of them, you need the world to awe them with jealousy. And here goes my on the loop playlist that consumes most part of my day. I am being thrifty having to consider various factors while designing this, as I blindly approve every work of some of my very dear artists(ARR, Ed, Lana to be precise) in the list out of unconditional love.
Naan Varuven, Naane Varugiren, Hamma, Avalum Naanum, Azhage Sugama, Vellai Pookal, Aaromale by ARR (Tamizh)
Unnakena Maele Nindrai, Sundari by Ilayaraja (Tamizh)
Eleanor Rigby, While My Guitar Gently Weeps, Martha My Dear by The Beetles
Suspecious Minds, Heartbreak Hotel by Elvis
Always by Bon Jovi
Firefly, Give me Love, Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran
Madness, Aftermath, Unintended by Muse
Without you, Dark Paradise, Maha Maha by Lana Del
You Rock My World, Dangerous, Bad, Whatever Happens by MJ
Fix You, Magic by Coldplay
Truely Madley Deeply, Irresistable by One Direction
Distance, Lonely, Human by Christina Perri
Stone Cold, Without The Love by Demi Lovato
Depressed, Her Song by Eminem
Come and get it, Who Says by Selena
Little Me, Good Enough by Little Mix
Sugar, Maps by Maroon5
Our Song, Teardrops on My Guitar by Taylor
1000 Times, Gravity by Sara Bareilles
Here by Alessia Cara
Ghosts, Lying To The Mirror by Aplin
Interlude by London Grammer
And the list and my heart as well will go on and on 😊
It was like a replication of what was lying above her, on the sky, on a full moon day. Just as the lonely moon was trying hard to hide under the blanket of dark sky, she was trying hard to calm down and dive in to sleep along with the rest of the world. It was very calm such that one could not differentiate if it was the heart or the clock that was ticking and accompanying the silence. Yet she could not sleep. She remained awake, disturbed, unaware of what was dragging her down.
And there came her powerful weapon, the instant soothing reliever, the music to the rescue. And in particular when it is The Beatles, the battle becomes less worrying.
The soul was pulled out and danced to the melody of “While my guitar gently weeps“. Could there even be a better consoling element than what that master piece could offer? As the song precedes, she was able to connect it to the point where it stirred up her inner daemons and calmed them down.
The song voiced out on her behalf-
“You dint make a mistake by loving them. You gave chances no one ever wanted to risk. It was them who could not renown what was offered to them. You gave it because you know the importance of not having it”, the love that is shattered, unreciprocated cried out throughout the melody. It hugged her, danced with her and loved her back. She wished the song could take the form of people to healthily worry and spread all of the wasted care, affection. Only if the world knew kindness is not that taboo factor to be nullified. She was finally happy realizing that she is exhaling the purest intentions and it was a sound sleep, aftermath.
I look at you all, see the love there that’s sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I don’t know why nobody told you
How to unfold your love
As I’m sitting here doing nothing but aging
Still my guitar gently weeps
“Did you see that? The moon follows me everywhere”
“It is an illusion kid”
“Why can’t they see how much he likes me”, sighed the kid.
The moon was the best thing ever happened to her then. Nevertheless, her hope shattered in time when people took their role to evince the existence of delusion.